I am amazed by God. There are seasons when we particularly savor the happiness of being reconciled with God. I am positively happy to know Him. I wake up in the morning thinking what a joy it is to be in a relationship with Him. I am not on the outside wondering if there is any truth in all this. I was, and it was not simple. What should we believe, where is the truth, who is right, and Jesus, God, a liar, or a simple wise man erected as God by poor sinners and others ignorant of theology? It was not simple. But God literally seduced me, swept away my uncertainties and answered my questions. He tamed me. Now I ask Him not to let me live and die a fool, without spending myself on Him. The measure of my hostility of yesteryear is the measure of my submission today.
I taught about the kingdom of God last Sunday and the reality of this kingdom in us, the reign of God in me precedes the reign of God through and by me. I want Him to find no resistance in me towards Him, but on the other hand, I want to give the devil a hard time. I want to be constantly on the same wavelength as the Holy Spirit, for Him to find me easy to live with. In reality God impresses me, and I consider myself privileged to know Him. It makes me crazy with joy. Why am I sharing this, because I want to, that's how it is. What a treasure, and to think that we carry this treasure in earthen vessels. Wow!
